Seven month post-ibogaine-session timeline.

0-2 days (session):

First hours very physical and perceptual. Overtly psychedelic. Next 6-8 hours psychologically difficult though impersonal. Struggle with fear of death itself rather than specific emotional issues or the past. No memory resurgence. Many global/apocalyptic visuals and mental narratives. Dismemberment and annihilation narratives. Last 15 hours endless reflective drifting with localized hologram-like visual hallucinations. Trip approximately 34 hours then sleep.

2-3 days:

Intense physical lightness. Strange global-consciousness sensation. Peripheral visual ripples and other residual psychedelic phenomena. The world appears vast, complex and lit strangely with a harsh golden rather tropical light.

A cosmogonic feeling.

1 week:

Physical lightness continues. Reduced need for sleep. 0 drinks per day, alcohol tastes terrible. Prior to the session I was at 4-6 drinks a daily, for several years. Less eating in general. A strange bubbling laugh at times with no prompting. Laughter runs through whole body, as if some blockage has been removed. A feeling of joy in being. Music intensely pleasurable.

2 weeks:

Self-administered mushroom trip. Apparent sudden breakthrough immediately after experience, very intense and unlike anything before. Seems at the time like a major breakthrough. Intense sense of "awareness" and compassion towards others in the following hours and days. Cosmic overtones everywhere. "The awareness" seems to persist past the usual 2-5 day window for psychedelic afterglow.

1 - 2 months:

Awareness never completely dissipates but varies in intensity.

Intense, intricate dreams often of strange impersonal subject matter: many epic aerial vistas of strange composites of earthly civilizations from various times/places in history. Highly resolved human characters and even non-human creatures encountered. Unprecedented visual clarity.

"Conscious sleep" experiences. Feel aware that I am sleeping. See the "space between dreams" like a blank computer monitor. Ibogaineish "effervescence" wears down to an steady sense of peace. Physical lightness continues.

Fears and situational triggers operate as before resulting in hostility, anger, inferiority, pettiness, guilt. However, negative (and positive) states dissipate quickly leaving much less residue. Alcohol rises to 1-3 drinks daily. Irritable bowel syndrome symptoms (gas, bloating, abdominal pain, constipation, diarrhea) less frequent.

Cry or laugh intensely on occasion out of a sense of sudden release.

3 1/2 months:

Stomach flu causes severe vomiting and diarrhea for hours. Dehydration and weakness. Lie in bed for days. In retrospect this seems like a purging process. After recovering, reexperience the state just after the ibogaine session, physically light, laughing and crying, intense experiences while listening to music. Alcohol back down to 0 - 1 drinks daily. Eating only fruit and juices then slowly vegetables for several days.

4 months:

Notice awareness rising again.

Second mushroom session since ibogaine session. Medium-low dose. Almost no response. Slight visual waviness, and some smiling. No emotional surges, no terror, no insight, no afterglow, virtually no intestinal discomfort. All over in less than 2 hours. Unprecedented unresponsiveness to psilocybin.

Begin to notice gradual unintentional diet shifts. Less red meat. More fresh fruit.

Awareness continues to rise. Becomes almost continuous. Often the world appears radiant and crystal clear. Feel as if I see the "raw feed" of reality. Too strong to be my imagination. Often sense emotional shifts immediately as they happen rather than later when mired in them. Alcohol consumption rises to 1-2 drinks daily.

5 - 6 months:

Awareness becomes practically continuous and at times startlingly intense. At its keenest it feels as if I am not just in my body but part of a manifestation of the reality extending all around me. Similar to a psychedelic state but doesn't feel drug induced, as if the brain has "learned" to be in the psilocybin-activated state without the "drug" effects.

Generally healthy feeling. Almost no red meat, not appetizing. As if something is guiding my diet. Chicken, fish, fruit and fruit juice, vegetables. Coffee consumption at 1 cup daily. Alcohol consumption remains at 1-2 drinks daily.

Irritable bowel syndrome symptoms still occurring but at all-time low since they began 12 years ago. Abdomen at times miraculously normal - I can sometimes hold my lower belly with my hands and feel no discomfort at all - it feels dense, unbloated, "normal".

6 months:

Some tapering down of the clarity of recent weeks.

Re-read portions of Tolle for the first time in months. Interesting and different now. Have been doing "the work" all along since July, focusing as much as possible on my present state, thoughts, emotions all day everyday. Feel as if it became easier about a month ago. I may have glimpsed directly at least some of what he is talking about. Seem to suddenly "step out of time" for a moment, as if becoming aware that I'm in a stage drama. The world looks brighter, as if lit by a "second light". Less emotions in general. Feel as if something has been slowly but steadily working behind the scenes for months. Occasionally find myself meditating by just sitting and doing nothing and staying keenly focused on surroundings.

7 months:

Awareness recedes to a low but persistent level. Some days brilliantly fascinating.

IBS symptoms, anxiety and depressive sensations return intensely for a week or so in early part of seventh month then recede. Very dissappointing during but try to accept or "be with it". Then ok again.

Abdomen still "normal". Almost no excess gas, even in the morning and after meals. Like being a human being again. IBS limited mostly to brief pain in lower abdomen which dissipates within 15 minutes. Able to eat certain "off limits" foods for the first time in many years with no reaction, particularly dairy, broccoli and raw vegetables. Remarkable.

Red meat intake again. Alcohol consumption remains at 1-2 drinks daily. Sometimes never finish second drink.

Anger, irritability and general emotional reactivity still low. Pleasant "even keel" feeling. Find myself more at ease socially, less worried about "coming off"any particular way. Less dismayed by unexpected situations, smile at people more easily.

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Taken as a whole, results of ibogaine/psilocybin treatment and "spiritual work" have been quietly spectacular. Some skepticism towards future since downturns/relapses are very real and alarming. But it seems to help to hold steady with difficulty "being present"with anger, fear, physical symptoms etc.

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